Well I have been in the University library for a little more than 2 hours now and there is still 3 more hours to go before my last lecture of the day. Which I honestly think that I might cope without. Anyway, I am exhausted, tired and don't even know why I bother.
I had the most stressful day yesterday as I honestly care about all the work I do and as the final part is teamwork failing because of other people's inability really bugs me. Then in the mist of all my professor tells me that I had not got an offer for my placement year and I should really consult his secretary to follow it up definitely spiced the day up. I was so glad that two of them really are interested in their working output. One of them I worked with to get the newspaper 'product' out, and the other one gave me his work beforehand so it went smoothly. (I panicked in the computer room in the morning as no one turned up. I was hoping to hand the work in just after the lecture finished.) I really hate it when I stress to get things done when others casually leave things for others to complete. Why can't some people be a little more involved?
Anyway, this is really boring me to bits as I still got two and a half hours before that last lecture. I honestly hope that it at least last the full 50 minutes.
2006/12/12
2006/12/07
First lab day in the Inorganic sector
I woke up really early this morning, 7:05am despite the first alarm going off at 7:00am. Somehow I still end up leaving the house at 8:15am which guarantees that I'd be late. I had been doing that the past few days and walking into the lab 10 minutes late wasn't a really good idea, though I had been prepared for a told off. I might have reached there 5 minutes past the hour but it was pouring in rain and so the traffic was terrible.
I might have mentioned not too long ago about a lab partner. That partnership ended for eternity. The early part of the lab felt awkward but that was about it. I didn't honestly cared, a little certainly as he did compensate for some of my strange anxieties; second pair of eyes on the decisions. I am too clumsy. I nearly ruined my outcome. (I think I already have.) I ended up being the fastest out of my tutor group though not without chaos and confusion. I just don't like taking my time which is really bad. The day ended with me being 10 minutes later than the rest of people doing the same experiment. There would have been plenty of time to reprecipitate if the compound actually dissolved in the usual time of about 5 minutes but it took ages with I-don't-know-how-many-times over the supposed minimum amount and that was with just the acetone. So 5 minutes before the lab session was over I had to rotary evaporate the solution just so that the complex won't racemicize. (ligand rearragement so that polarised light would not be rotated as much as the isolated species.) It wasn't fun. All because I was slightly ahead of everybody else. I don't do it on purpose, I don't think, it is just that I don't like hanging around.
Oh on that matter of lab mishaps I used a 5 inch pipette to draw out liquid of 3 inch depth in a 15 inch height container. If that made sense you would have realised the impossibility of the action. Then there was vacuum dessication of one of my products though only 0.15g was actually needed to go in there. There was also the lack of functioning polarimeters available. The one that I knew how to operate had the sample container missing. Then the ones that did have it don't actually work. I think it was just that our lab teacher don't actually know how to operate it or was it just that I didn't want to use it?? Anyway I had a teasing from my ex-lab partner for the first two mishaps. He seems to be always around to witness it. I hope it is not the other way round though. Well now that I got used to their presence I can actually communicate with them and occassionally joke about but mine are usually unnatural. Well it took my two best friends a whole year to get closer and a further 3 or 4 years to finally understand each other I guess that's just life.
I have a small crush on my ex-lab partner as you may already noticed. Well thinking about my ex-lab partner who is very different to all my previous male encounters certainly put me off thinking about my one sided love for another guy of 3 years. I know I am just a classmate to him but it helps to deter me from thinking about the pain I had. I will pull out eventually but I guess pulling out of the feeling for my ex-lab partner is easier than that other guy so I just let that come and hopefully not show it too much.
I might have mentioned not too long ago about a lab partner. That partnership ended for eternity. The early part of the lab felt awkward but that was about it. I didn't honestly cared, a little certainly as he did compensate for some of my strange anxieties; second pair of eyes on the decisions. I am too clumsy. I nearly ruined my outcome. (I think I already have.) I ended up being the fastest out of my tutor group though not without chaos and confusion. I just don't like taking my time which is really bad. The day ended with me being 10 minutes later than the rest of people doing the same experiment. There would have been plenty of time to reprecipitate if the compound actually dissolved in the usual time of about 5 minutes but it took ages with I-don't-know-how-many-times over the supposed minimum amount and that was with just the acetone. So 5 minutes before the lab session was over I had to rotary evaporate the solution just so that the complex won't racemicize. (ligand rearragement so that polarised light would not be rotated as much as the isolated species.) It wasn't fun. All because I was slightly ahead of everybody else. I don't do it on purpose, I don't think, it is just that I don't like hanging around.
Oh on that matter of lab mishaps I used a 5 inch pipette to draw out liquid of 3 inch depth in a 15 inch height container. If that made sense you would have realised the impossibility of the action. Then there was vacuum dessication of one of my products though only 0.15g was actually needed to go in there. There was also the lack of functioning polarimeters available. The one that I knew how to operate had the sample container missing. Then the ones that did have it don't actually work. I think it was just that our lab teacher don't actually know how to operate it or was it just that I didn't want to use it?? Anyway I had a teasing from my ex-lab partner for the first two mishaps. He seems to be always around to witness it. I hope it is not the other way round though. Well now that I got used to their presence I can actually communicate with them and occassionally joke about but mine are usually unnatural. Well it took my two best friends a whole year to get closer and a further 3 or 4 years to finally understand each other I guess that's just life.
I have a small crush on my ex-lab partner as you may already noticed. Well thinking about my ex-lab partner who is very different to all my previous male encounters certainly put me off thinking about my one sided love for another guy of 3 years. I know I am just a classmate to him but it helps to deter me from thinking about the pain I had. I will pull out eventually but I guess pulling out of the feeling for my ex-lab partner is easier than that other guy so I just let that come and hopefully not show it too much.
2006/12/01
Strange Dream
I had a really strange dream last night or the night before that. I was running away with Hannah one of my two best friends. We were holding dearly to a few magnetic stirrer bars which had some sort of secret embedded in it. We were running away frantically across Derbyshire. There were men in suits chasing us. We were exhausted. Hannah wanted to rest but I kept pushing her. Then a familiar scene happened. We were surrounded by a flock of sheeps which somehow helped us get away into a small country alleyway. We carried on running until we reached the top of a field where a farmer was mowing his lawn (don't ask me why he was doing that). He noticed us through a fence and gave us a lift. Me and Hannah were already really tired and agreed. We slept for a while until which point we were nearing a sheltered road with fence and trees around it. We quickly hid the magnetic stirrer bars inside our bra. Then we said our thanks to the farmer and got off at a T-junction of the road. We turned around and walked up that second road. As we reached the highest point two men appeared. I stopped walking. Hannah kept pulling me to go away but I was looking at the tallest man in front of me. It was Jared. A guy who is in my tutor group. Hannah still kept pulling me to go away but I held out my hand and let him put cuffs on me. I somehow trusted him not to harm me and let him take me away. Then I woke up. It is very strange. I am not even close of him. I would say hi to him if I met him but that's about it. It made it very awkward when I see him. It reminds me of this dream which I find really strange. But anyway we got a newspaper to do together for Generic Skills with Vinay, Steven and Daniel.
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