Hi from Japan

It has been a while since I have made a blog....there really isn't much reason for not doing so except that too many things have happened over the past few months.

I am a strange person. I warm up slowly to people only to show them just the shell of me. However, that changed recently. As the title implied I am in Japan. Well I have been here for two and a half months now and have pretty much settled in. I am at a chemical company and due to legality I an bound to secrecy, lol. Anyway, I am currently an international intern with two other and another two Japanese interns. Out of the five of us I have the youngest supervisor who is really pushing me to learn about his work. There is also the annoyance of his interest in my personal life. I have been asked several times what I thought of a particular employee and have been asked to compare him with the only male intern who I just happened to spend a lot of time with (There are currently lots of complications between us two and if he wasn't there I might have collapsed a while ago.). I know perfectly well what that means but I am acting ignorant of it. Then there is also the team leader who is a notorious womanizer apparently. As long as I play on the safe side I should be able use that to my advantage and observe how he does business. So yeah, my love life is empty and from the day that I said I was single I have lost control of it....until I leave Japan anyway.

I don't know what I should be doing. I am just an intern at the company so I am ambitious and work hard. I still don't know what the hell I am doing though I am just doing repetitive work. I don't do analysis, I just produce the data but now I am beginning to help out my with my supervisor's work. It is funny though, what I am starting to do for my supervisor is not that different from what I do at home; the only difference is the complexity of what is wanted. I do hope that my supervisor don't use my language straight onto his communications. There was also the funny thing that he was asking me what he should do in response to technical exchange with another company in France. I don't even know why he was asking me about that when I am just an intern.

Oh, the other international intern likes the only male intern. As a result, she is ignoring me....big time. Hey I don't really like the guy but because I am the only person that kind of understands him and because he kind of rely on me and vice versa that's why we are close. We are both searching for our other half and because of that nothing can really happen between us. lol, It is pretty ironic though. The first guy that I actually find myself relying on apart from my brother is not and will never be my other half. Am I destined to be alone until I'm 30?? Anyway, I got Tuesday to look forward to.....the guy that my team leader kind of introduced me to as a possible boyfriend will be coming to the company. I can handle the guy just not my team leader.

It is actually 0134 in Japan right now. I have been up from 7 am this morning, though my sleep wasn't good for two nights running. I am tired and I am tidying my room tomorrow, yeah when I wake up, after many days of saying that I would do so. Anyway, I want to clear up some space to study and I can't do it while I'm tired. Am going to bed now.

This is going to be short

I think I have really formed a dependence on my ex lab partner. I was thinking about my Arabic crush this morning and was expecting the same fate. Now that it had finally happened I felt a lot better. I know it doesn't make sense but neither what I am feeling right now. Maybe it was to do with the fact that I will be leaving the uk for at least 12 months in less than a month's time. Everything feels a lot complicated right now. Anyhow after tomorrow I should be in full steam for myupcoming exams. I can't fail, not now. I really REALLY want to study medicine!!!!!

Finally starting revision

I should have started revising since the beginning of the EAster holiday but I haven't so today will be my official day of proper revision. Well after how blank my tutorial had been I know that it is what I should do and urgently needs to be done too!!! However, it still doesn't distract me from checking my e-mail (I have been on the e-mail list for jokes!) and found this (one of the patients in the hospital will like this):

Marriage and Men

• When a man decides to marry, it may be the last decision he'll ever make.
• Some men who speak with authority at work know enough to bow to a higher authority at home
• A dish towel will certainly wipe the contented look off a married man's face
• Love is the quest, marriage is the conquest, divorce is the inquest.
• An engagement is an urge on the verge of a merge.
• Marriage brings music to a man's life. He learns to play second fiddle.
• Getting married is one mistake every man should make.
• A well-informed man is one whose wife has just told him what she thinks of him.
• Courtship, unlike proper punctuation, is a period before a sentence.
• The argument you just won with your wife isn't over yet.

and lastly............

• Before criticizing your wife's faults, you must remember it may have been these very defects which prevented her from gettting a better husband that the one she married!

Hahaha, isn't that funny.

I am going to Japan next year for my placement. It wasn't my first choice so I am not as excited but it will be fun. The area I will be going to is quite rural so I shouldn't stress too much. There will only be one other guy I know there but he is somewhere outside my town or city, though I think it is more on the town scale, so I will practically be having to cope on my own. It doesn't subtract from the fact that there will also be a Canadian and American there to talk to if my Japanese got tangled. Apart from my family and best friends I think I will miss my ex-lab partner most. It is just the laughter he had created and the relaxed attitude to things. He has replaced my Arabic-crush to some extent but not completely. At least now I look back on my Arabic crush fondly rather than unhappily.

Oh, I went out to a nightclub with my two best mates on the Saturdays just gone. The first time I was kind of holding on to what was actually available to me so that went well (as if). The second time, the guys were pretty desperate apart from one who I've been told that I've actually pulled but rejected as I wasn't too comfortable with the distance. He offered to buy me a drink but I wasn't intent on knowing him. I don't know what my problem was with that guy....oooh.....I just remembered why, it was because he was pretty drunk already. All the other desperate guys we seemed to play hide and seek with. I kind of brought that on, which I never knew I could do and the mini skirt did accelerate it. We ended up pulling each other towards ourself and running around and behind the big teddy bear who was my mate's friend. I felt sorry for doing that to him. There was one point when one of the desperate guys who tried having a go at us was rugby tackled by another man. It was very awkward. The second time I've actually been to that night-club........what an experience!!! At least I know that if I actually dressed up a bit I am not really unattractive. Well I've wished my ex-lab partner was there since it was his kind of scene in comparison of my Arabic crush, but I guess he preferred more teenage-feel nightclubs than more mature ones.