I have just added this blog to the Facebook. Reasons unknown. I have just realised that I had put real names in the blogs, apologies to those people. I hope they weren't taken as insults. As the things I say here are now going to be known by the people I know or think I know I might just be careful of what I say.
I had taken a Friends game on Facebook about an hour ago. Apart from the ones I have known from KES I hardly know anyone. It didn't stop me playing it anyway. For some of the people on my list my observations actually helped me on that part. (Who says that you can't know a person just by meeting them once?) I ain't a saint so I got half wrong, despite 75% of the people who came up I don't actually know properly.
Some people may wonder why I spend most of my time alone. Or they don't bloody care at all. Don't blame them I ain't that interesting anyway. Okay, here is the reason: I am scared of people. Well I do love them, all shape and sizes, kind and horrible; I might not get along with some but I still love them. I have been hurt by so many that it gets difficult for me to initiate a connection. Then as the time went on I had become so adapted to spending time by myself that it gets even harder to start a new connection in life. But there are some that did develop and had continued. It is hard to get us together now that we are separated but it is still there. Those I am willing to give my life to. Others I will still give them whatever I am capable of, within reason before you think of taking advantage of me.
I am fragile, emotionally, so if you cared to read this or any other things I've written.....
Thank You
As there are someone out there who are interested in what's beneath the fascade, but don't let me know, just leave me as I am. I will regret writing this sometime in the future and you might have become my human firing target.
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