Exam results

I picked up my results from January today. I have been avoiding it all last week, but when I finally got the courage to go, he is not in. How lucky am I? I already knew that I killed my exams with the lack of concentration during revision period but at least that gap isn't too far so that I can never get that first honour. I am pretty upset though. To be expected really, I always mess up my exams!!!

I am very emotional and that had been getting in the way of me actually doing my work. People have suddenly became a distraction. I remember in Y13 I practically locked myself up in my bedroom and went through all the text books I had in my house and then spending hours and hours on end working. Now that I don't have to work as much as before this seemed to be making me less enthusiastic about my work. It is pretty annoying but I guess it had to be dealt with. It isn't making it easier with the fact that my dad is hanging around me like a ghost. It really distracts me. Also by acting like a father and not being one from the beginning is making me resent him even more. I absolutely hate him. I would like it very much if he will just live away from me. At least I will not hate him as much.

I don't really like my ex-lab partner, I just noticed. He is a distraction but only because he say things which others wouldn't it made me feel less neglected. I brought it onto myself anyway but what the heck, I probably won't ever see him again after this year.

I probably should get some work done, just so that I can average above 70 by the end of this year.