HELP!!!!!!!

I don't know what's wrong with me. I have always been capable to coping with stress but today I just felt like I was falling into pieces. I have never felt like that before. Was it due to the music or was it just me being too much of a perfectionist and always complicating things?

I arranged for my team to meet up again today to finish the presentation. There was a suprising turnout. The guy who didn't turn up last time came. He was a bit like a lemon and the things he said made me panic, on top of the fact that me out of all people was late. Then, I didn't allow myself enough time to rearrange the information I had taken in over the past two days whilst trying to explain to him what was going on, which complicated the matter to a much bigger extent. Then everyone kept asking me what they should be doing. I am really wondering what I was thinking or planning? I was hoping for a discussion of our findings like last time but then again the other time was just inputing the information onto a powerpoint. Either way the lack of preparation on their part made me feel really tired. The sudden pressure of supporting them was getting onto me. I honestly don't know what I have taken on. These were some of the reason why I didn't want to become a team leader. I like solving theoretical problems not personnel issues and other people's lack of instinctive thinking. I am glad that we at least of one other guy who's reliable and had actually did some research. I drifted fairly far whilst he actually got the thing straight on. Lastly, we finally agreed to let the others gaggle on while we try to finish it off on the day. That is going to be very stressful.

Now that's off my chest I can finally relax and start on the work that I should be doing.

I just thought of something. I think I know why this time I had an almost nervous breakdown. I was sorting out my application whilst trying to get our presentation sorted. I tend to suppress my panic until I could do so and that panic never was actually expressed as I was forcing myself to focus on the readings I have to do by today; then the shortening fuse was suddenly lit when the unexpected people turned up. That was why!! I know now. Well on top of the fact that I didn't really do much planning. I think I have somehow ended up trusting them not to turn up so that I will do the work myself or otherwise with one or two other people. I really have to stop thinking about it and get some much needed attention on my tutorial and Japanese writing.