Considering that this is the only week in the entire year that we don't have labs, since the first few weeks anyway, I am pretty knackered. I have fallen ill, though I hadn't been fully well since before the exams back in May/June 2006. More to do with the fact that I was trying to define always getting ill after exams.
I have been really confused lately. There is this guy at Uni who was really nice but as I don't have to work with him or be in close circle with him I won't go and talk to him. I have been ignoring him all the rest of last year and early on this academic year. But I have sent him these really strange e-mails. Back at uni things gets really strange. Am I flirting with him?? It feels like I am doing the same thing to a different guy all over again. However, this time I don't like him in the same way as the other guy. What the hell am I doing??
Labs were ok considering that my partner had gone back to his old ways. In the last experiment we split into two experiments. They were almost the exact same, just the reagents were different, and we gone on pretty well. As mine was the shorter one I finished earlier than he did despite starting after him. I am not forgiving him for having a better crude yield though (the cork stand for our round bottom flask somehow gained weight so it was 5 or 6 grams over the original value. As a result I had to give or take for the value). That was fine. He was even more excited when his TLC actually produced perfect results, his never worked last year so most of them were improvised, which I congratulate him as I done most of ours over the past few weeks. I get annoyed so easily. I picked up the NMR on Monday, did them before the tutorial and he decides not to turn up. I really hate witholding information from someone. The problem really lies in I care and he don't. I have always cared if someone working with me didn't do well. I honestly don't know why but it had been going on since primary school!!!!! It just frustrates me. Anyway I talk about him too much. (Oh......He have really red lips, don't ask me why I noticed.....it just stood out....., and he is the same star sign as my little brother. So they really are the same type of people!)
2006/11/29
2006/11/13
Another early Monday
It is now 8:30am. I had only been waken for half an hour and had to get to uni pretty soon. (I still got my tutorial for last Friday to hand in. It was difficult and my lab write-up was stuck in traffic as the NMR expansion was no where to be seen on Friday the week before and when I went to get it Ed was busy while paddy was away. So much for good coordination.
I had been emotionally knackered over the weekend. I have just asked for my friends' support as I try to drop a guy I had loved for the past three and a half years. We never dated, but I thought (imagined) that we were in love with each other. It was painful. I had even given up the chance of a great boyfriend because the burden on me for not wholly into that new guy was driving me away from work and making me go crazy. It was made worst for the fact that my dad forged my mum's signature on legal papers and requested tax credits for his estranged child, my elder half-sister, who he had never seen since she and his ex-wife's new family moved to Canada.
Then only four hours later he bought the plane tickets here to England leaving my mum behind in hk. She only went back for medical checks and a small operation. She already had an ultrasound scan for abnormalities in her thyroid glands and the lymph vessels in her neck (can't tell which one as the doctors were reluctant to inform us properly). The timing was awful too. He will be here with us for Christmas and New Year then return JUST missing my mum's dentist appointment before the operation. She was estatic when she called us at 3:30am. I cried shortly after she put the phone down on my brother. I wasn't too good in comforting her, my brother was better as he can isolate himself from the situation for a short while. He then had to comfort me until I calmed down. I put myself to making a broth for the next day just to distract me a little so I can at least have some sleep. When I was downstairs in the kitchen I heard him screaming twice. It was very hard on all of us. It had been a long time since I heard my mother cried like that. It was very difficult. My brother stayed at home on Sunday. He rejected his friends request to hang out. Maybe he was chatting to his new best friend that night as we didn't wake up until midday. My mum called a few hours after that distrauting phone call. She was better I was knackered so it was continue to bed for us. Sunday was difficult as I had already mentioned. I did end up completing my tutorial at last, but that used up my last set of determinations. As much as I wanted to carry-on with my other pieces of work I just couldn't.
Well I best get going. I still have to hand in that tutorial to be marked for this afternoon.
I had been emotionally knackered over the weekend. I have just asked for my friends' support as I try to drop a guy I had loved for the past three and a half years. We never dated, but I thought (imagined) that we were in love with each other. It was painful. I had even given up the chance of a great boyfriend because the burden on me for not wholly into that new guy was driving me away from work and making me go crazy. It was made worst for the fact that my dad forged my mum's signature on legal papers and requested tax credits for his estranged child, my elder half-sister, who he had never seen since she and his ex-wife's new family moved to Canada.
Then only four hours later he bought the plane tickets here to England leaving my mum behind in hk. She only went back for medical checks and a small operation. She already had an ultrasound scan for abnormalities in her thyroid glands and the lymph vessels in her neck (can't tell which one as the doctors were reluctant to inform us properly). The timing was awful too. He will be here with us for Christmas and New Year then return JUST missing my mum's dentist appointment before the operation. She was estatic when she called us at 3:30am. I cried shortly after she put the phone down on my brother. I wasn't too good in comforting her, my brother was better as he can isolate himself from the situation for a short while. He then had to comfort me until I calmed down. I put myself to making a broth for the next day just to distract me a little so I can at least have some sleep. When I was downstairs in the kitchen I heard him screaming twice. It was very hard on all of us. It had been a long time since I heard my mother cried like that. It was very difficult. My brother stayed at home on Sunday. He rejected his friends request to hang out. Maybe he was chatting to his new best friend that night as we didn't wake up until midday. My mum called a few hours after that distrauting phone call. She was better I was knackered so it was continue to bed for us. Sunday was difficult as I had already mentioned. I did end up completing my tutorial at last, but that used up my last set of determinations. As much as I wanted to carry-on with my other pieces of work I just couldn't.
Well I best get going. I still have to hand in that tutorial to be marked for this afternoon.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)